Darwin Deez
Bad Day
Darwin Deez
(Source: Spotify)
Darwin Deez
Bad Day
Darwin Deez
(Source: Spotify)
This goes for Pride. This goes for school. This goes for the communities I’m in online. This goes for basically every part of my life, to some extent at least.
I’m tired of being afraid and paranoid, of reliving past trauma and abuse when I’m afraid the same shit is going to happen again. I am sick to fucking death of seeing spaces which should be safe, both for me and the people I care about, being rendered unsafe because of my abuser/stalker/ex. I don’t want this to continue, and that’s been my stance since day one. I’m tired of them bringing back the past and refusing to let it go - I’m not that interesting! I kind of suck! Why do you fixate on me, why spend so much energy on it! Go pet a cat, go write a letter to someone you care about, go teach yourself a new skill, go find something better to do than wasting both our time and energy.
To my abuser:
this blog is still dead but I know my abuser still checks up on it from time to time so I’m leaving some nice little notes
gotta love seeing them post about “2015 was such an embarrassing year for me yikes” like,,,,, ex fucking scuse me
abusing another human being? emotional abuse, continued harassment, what legally counts as cyberstalking, literally stealing every aspect of my identity and then shaming me for it, literally fucking driving me to a mental breakdown and making me want to kill myself?
fuck you, you don’t get to brush that off as embarrassing. 2015 was the year where you caused deliberate and repeated harm to the victim of your abuse when they stopped putting up with you and your bullshit.
There is literally one person other than me who goes through all my pages, all my posts, looks at my readmores when they’re going through my blog. Nobody else feels the need to invade my personal space that much, even people who I’m really close friends with. Re-evaluate your fucking self
Look
Fuck off
also holy fuck
@ you again (very long)
this blog is still dead but I know my abuser still checks up on it from time to time so I’m leaving some nice little notes
@ you (you know who you are) consider the following:
and also, consider this:
There’s a documentary coming out called Can We Take A Joke about how the PC police are stifling comedians. I want to make one called Can You Make A Joke about how shitty comedians feel entitled to laughter just for saying the same boring shit your racist cousin says.
Following is my Instructable on how I carved (and, though extremely difficult, how YOU could carve) my 2013 pumpkin “I… am Optimus Prime!”
WHAT THE FUCK
when i was 12 i babysat this girl for a few years and she would come to me and show me her art, drag me by my wrists and point at the pieces she’d made during the week. and she’d be like “do the voice” and i’d put on a sports-announcer olympics-style voice and be like “such form! this level of coloring! why i haven’t seen such perfection in crayola in a long time. and what is this? why jeff, now this is a true risk… it seems she’s made … a monochrome pink canvas…. i haven’t seen this attempted since winter 1932… and i gotta say, jeff, it’s absolutely splendid” and she’d fall back giggling. at the end of every night she’d check with me: “did you really like it?” and i’d say yes and talk about something i noticed and tucked her in.
she was just accepted into 3 major art schools. she wrote me a letter. inside was a picture from when she was younger. monochrome pink.
“thank you,” it said, “to somebody who saw the best in me.”
I open this app the way a disgruntled and jaded old man opens the newspaper in the morning
Lessons I’ve learned from Discworld (an incomplete list):
- The price of being the best is always having to be the best.
- You aren’t always thanked for doing right. Do it anyway.
- Passive doesn’t always mean weak. There are lots of ways to be strong.
- If you dig the best ditches, they’ll give you a bigger shovel.
- Evil starts with thinking of people as things.
- Don’t get so caught up you forget to have fun.
- Take care of people and they’ll take care of you.
- Take the time to get to know people.
- Take breaks.
- If you act like you belong, people will believe you.
- It matters a lot less what you believe and a lot more what you do with that belief.
- Everyone matters, but some people matter in much bigger ways.
- There’s lots of different ways to be intelligent.
- Love isn’t easy, but it’s worth it.
- You can’t run people’s lives for them.
- Just because someone’s way isn’t your way, doesn’t make it wrong.
- Sometimes you have to play by the rules or it doesn’t count.
don’t get scared, get angry